Grad School

 About a year ago I decided that I wanted to go back to school and focus on the digital world. I have found my work in e-commerce to be very fascinating and have decided this is the field that I would like to develop my career in. I was able to find a wonderful program at State University of New York at Utica/Rome, that is 100% online.  (As you can see, I am getting closer to New York!) My master of science will be in Information Design and Technology, I really has chosen to focus on social media for many of my projects and this is the topic that I will most likely write my thesis on. I feel that social media is here to stay and that it plays a large role in attracting. retaining customers in any business.

So far all of my classes have been great and I realized what graduate school is really about, it is truly about using the tools that the professors provide to guide your own learning experience. School is what you make of it and it is up to you to decided how much or little that you learn. I can honestly that unlike undergrad, I am focused on actually learning something that I can use either in my job today or for any future endeavors that I decide to take. 

I am hoping that after I finish next year that I finally find a job and am able to move to New York. It is a big move and ambitious but if I don't try, I know that I will never forgive myself. As always I will keep you posted about my journey and how it turns out!

Pressures of Life

This week have by far been the most stressful week that I have had this year. I know that sounds crazy because it only April but it so true. The week started on a good note on Monday but it did not last for long, immediately after walking into my office I was bombarded with a list of projects that needed to be completed by the end of the week along with my weekly projects for school. On top of that when I arrived home on Tuesday, I walked into my bathroom to find water everywhere. I immediately called emergency maintenance who informed me the issue would not be fixed until the next day!!! I stayed up until 4 am because I could not sleep with the constant noise of the water running and fear the my entire apartment would be flooded.

Thank God, I finally received my break today! After a month of failed searching and being overwhelmed by prices, I finally found my perfect apartment. It will require me to downsize slightly but it is a welcome adjustment for the community that I am about to join. I no longer have to worry about a sketchy character approaching me on a routine trip to the grocery store, I know this can happen anywhere but in my current area it is more likely to happen every time I shop. For me this is the most important thing when I am looking at a potential neighborhood. I can't stop smiling or obsessing over the details now I have to deal with the hard part, de-cluttering and getting rid of things that I no longer need. I am such a pack rat so it will be an emotional process for me.

Overall being an adult is much more difficult than I thought, but day by day I am learning that things happen and you have to deal with the good and the bad. although this is not the life that I envisioned for myself as a little girl, I would change any moment of it. I know that the old saying "everything happens for a reason", is completely true and all of my life lessons come in handy.

Until next time. Have a safe and happy rest of you weekend!

Two years later!

Wow it has been quote a while since I have posted so I guess I should catch you up on what been going on. Since graduating I have had three different jobs. I was first a store manager of a Plato's closet, and Executive Assistant to a Real Estate Agent and now I am a Merchandising manager for an e-retailer and I am now attending graduate school

The last two years have been absolutely crazy but I can honestly say that I would not change any of it. Each of my experiences has helped me become the person that I am today. Now I know you may be wondering why, I changed jobs so many times in two years and the answer simply is, I was not happy. Being a college graduate in this era is tough, upon graduating I found out that having a degree did not mean that I was entitled to any job but especially not one in my field of study. I struggled with this and after a year of being angry about it, I realized that I am not the only person going to this difficult journey. I happily excepted positions that I was offered and became less emotional about not being off "my dream job" right away.

Along my journey I have also realized that I have to make opportunities happen, I cannot just sit around and hope that Oprah knocks at my door and ask me to come work for her. If this is truly my goal I need to take the necessary steps to move forward and take ever fail as a opportunity to grow into a better person.

I still very much want to move to New York and I decided that I will. I want to finish grad school before I make any move but I know that  will never forgive myself if I don't go. Even if  I go for a few months and come back, at least I went.

Until next time... Have a Happy Easter!!

Time to Get Serious

The beginning of August did not start off so well. It seemed that everyday I was being plagued by some mistake that I made. After about three weeks of not being my perfect self, I gave myself a stern talking to and got myself together. Mistakes at any age are not cute, but careless ones are truly unacceptable in your career. For a moment I lost my stride but now I am in the swing of things again. I wake up about two hours before I have to leave each day to eat breakfast and prepare myself for the day so I don't feel so overwhelmed. It has proven to be a success, I find myself drinking less cups of coffee or feeling drained around noon.  In addition, I also see myself getting so much more done and receiving more responsibilities. Life lesson don't lose focus on what's imporatnt. Alway stay on your toes and treat everday life its you first, once you get comfortable things tyoically go down hill.

More Money Equals More Bills

College taught me a lot of valuable of lessons but money management was not one of them! Like most college students my favorite time was the beginning of the semester, why you ask, Refunds!!! I remember it like it was yesterday, I would pay my rent for entire semester and blow the rest. The best part of this was I only had to wait a few months for another large check. Now that its been about eight months since graduation realty has really set in. There is no fat check coming just my monthly salary. Don't get me wrong I love everything on my life I have the apartment of my dreams in the neighborhood of my dreams and my car is fully paid for. So whats the problem you ask? I have no self control! I am a sucker for store credit cards or using my credit card for something I could pay cash for or do without. All that done is create unnecessary debt.

Yesterday I wrote down a list of all my bills and the amounts that I paid. I subtracted the total from my monthly pay. I also added together those bills that were outsides against necessity( water, shelter, lights and food). I realized that I am actually waisting more money swiping these cards so casually. So I have come up with a monthly savings plan that will help me pay off those unnecessary credits cards and I can focus on pay the government back for all those generous refund checks I was given.


If I could do anything over again, it would be to save up a nest egg for after college. I remember a year ago I said that I would do this but as the semester went on so did all my after college savings. I now know that I cannot be trusted with my own money and I need help until I have proper self control.

If you are reading this and still are in college, make sure you have something saved up. Yes, you may get your dream job but if you don't at least you will have something to live off of.

If you are a recent grad reading this stay away from credit cards I repeat stay away from credit cards!!!

The lesson I learned: Being a grown up is difficult


Hey Loves!

Sorry its been so long since I have posted. Life has been so crazy after graduation. SO let catch up! The last time I posted I was frantically searching for a job and learning the how the real world worked. Since then I started being a Store Manager at discount retailer whose name I won't mention. I won't mention it simply because I have no hard feelings and treat the time as a valuable learning experience and don't want to sway the opinions of others. 

This was the first job that I was offered that seemed to offer somewhat suitable pay and a great title. I was initially hired to go through their "structured training program" and it was great. I spent so much time learning and being developed that I felt truly valued. That was until one Saturday when, the manager at the store I was training at left!! Yes it was a busy Saturday and she stormed out,I called upper level management to inform them and I was quickly told this would be my assigned store. Sounds great right, wrong! I went from only being responsible for open and closing the doors to  being held accountable making schedules, hiring/firing, payroll etc ( all which I had no training on) in just a week.

 Now I'm not a complainer and I catch on really quickly so, in the beginning it was ok, but once things started happening at the other stores, I was left to fend for myself. It was  horrible I worked constantly without a lunch break and barely had one day off. I  became so stressed that it started to take a toll on my personal life. While all of this was going I was still hourly and when I asked about the salary that was suppose to be given to me after I was assigned a store, I was told that I was still considered in training. While this is a rational answer, it would only make since if I weren't already doing the work that  a store manager did. I was told "with everything going on, we have to push your training back a bit." At that moment I had to look around and see if I could really live my life like this. Sure I was employed so I was grateful but did going to college mean throwing away my integrity?

I began going on job interviews on my days off and finally got offered a new one! I won't go into too much detail about it, but I can say that after only 8 days I feel a since of worth that I didn't feel the entire time I was at the unnamed retailer.

As I look back the time I spent agonizing over I job I realized that while it was a terrible feeling, I wish I would have taken advice from others and not take a job on impulse. Also that I am young and I shouldn't put myself in a situation that I absolutely hate. This is the time in life where I can truly choose a job that makes me happy because besides my personal expense I virtually have not a care in the world.

If you take anything from my experince take this, the real world is nothing like the romantize it in college. Its tough and the plan that you had for life may seem like its not going to happen. In this part of your life, its all about what YOU make it, don't settle for anything less than happiness. As always comment and come back to read more!

The reality of being a college grad during a recession: Compensation

The past few weeks I have continued my job search. I recently had three interviews with different companies. So far I have heard back from two and was offered a position at each. This should be a wonderful event and don't get me wrong I'm so happy to finally have a yes, but the problem seems to be compensation. Both jobs were only offering minimum wage. I don't want to sound ungrateful but did I just spend three and a half years and thousands of dollars to make $7.25 an hour?

I know that economic times are tough but taking a minimum wage job, repaying loans and trying to survive seems quite impossible. I have applied for all these opportunities that want a degree but it seems that just a degree isn't worth much anymore. Employers want you to have experience but it has to be full time experience out of school. How does one obtain that? I have been wracking my brain trying to figure out which avenue to take and how to get myself out of this rut.

Now that the new year has started and companies are out of the end of the year crunch and I have been told that they actually looking for applicants fresh out of college. I am being extremely optimistic because I have a great resume and believe that I would be an asset to any company. At this point its all about the waiting game. Though it is taking longer than I thought , I am sure the right opportunity is out there for me. I still have not heard back from one company and that may be my chance. Whatever the outcome, I am thankful that I graduated, have a place to stay and made it into the new year safely.

I am so overwhelmed and excited about the recent traffic that I have been receiving! I hope that my journey is giving someone else comfort in knowing that they are not alone. I personally felt alone until I talked to classmates that were going through the same thing. This made me feel better and at ease. As always thanks for reading and please comment.